This chapter of my life has finally closed. The circut has completed, the loop is closed, and I am again back to a state of beggining.

A leasson is learned and an path is closed now, I see there is no merit in some of my previous efforts and convictions they are just hopefull musings that distract and allow for the usefull and realative information to be overlooked or assigned a deminnished value.

My sense of duty and obligation is in decline after a second failed intervention. I see now that it only binds the desired revelation to failure and resentment. Never shall I again take on the responsibility of the "one" upon whom you may lean, for that roll is one of one sided dependancy that results in an imbalence and eventual yet altogether avoidable deminishment for both partys. Never shall I say the words "Let me show you" to another being. particularly in regards to emontional and sociol awareness of the dynamic and complex interactions between individuals.  Only from a position of self interest can this be gained, It can not be taught only shown. Guide not teacher, ear not speaker, hand not wheelchair. and outstrechedhands beware if you tug upon me I may tear.

Really it lays with in me to start this phase anew and do what I have slways thought of as a personal crusade if possible infrequently or not at all.

I am not a Iron Lung or and

The ground is holding you up not pulling your smile down, silly.